Thanks for all the encouragement after last week’s missive about being dissatisfied with myself and my work. I wasn't (consciously) begging for encouragement, but lots of you responded with some, and it felt good. These lines from artist (and guest contributor) Stephanie Frostad were particularly helpful:
“Colette claimed that one of her greatest assets as a writer was self-doubt. In this I understand the persistent questioning that fosters evolution in our work, making it truer and stronger over time.”
It’s nice to have smart friends.
(And I can’t move on without noting that Wikipedia describes Colette as a “mime, actress and journalist.” And I thought being a songwriter, community music teacher and a journalist was a weird trifecta! Colette, I tip my imaginary hat to you.)
Expressing all that uncomfortably vulnerable stuff helped. I went on to have a good day of writing, and I had another one today. Since the writing process is so solitary, and therefore so mysterious, I thought I'd spend the rest of my digital ink simply outlining what I did today. Maybe this will be helpful to someone else who is engaged in a big project and wondering if he/she is "doing it right." I don't know if I'm doing it right either, but this is how I'm doing it:
6:30-ish | half-way woke up
7:15-ish | woke up for real
7:15 - 8:00 | tea, short meditation, short walk, sang a song
8:00 - 8:30 | grr. software update on my computer. really, 31 minutes remaining? guess i'll eat breakfast.
8:30 - 12:45-ish | writing
12:45 - 2:00-ish | run, lunch, shower
2:00 | omg how is it 2:00 already?
2:00 - 4:00 | writing
4:00 | glance at phone (deadly. distraction certain to ensue)
4:01 | distraction ensues. my neighbor has texted me to say that there are three freakin' BEARS in the tree at the end of my block
4:01 - 4:30-ish | bear watching. adorable. fascinating. worth it.
4:30-ish until 9:15 | write some more for the podcast, and then write this to you
9:16 | rush to the grocery store before it closes
Until next week, friends!